One of the upsides to admitting I'm a (recovering) addict have been the messages I've received from other recovering addicts.  The need to process and talk about what I've been through is great.  During my first week in rehab at Oaks Recovery, I rarely spoke.  It took a few people there to push me to get that ball rolling.  Fast forward to the now, post-jail and post-rehab, the desire to talk things out during this self-examination period is greater than it was before.  Maybe this is normal.  I don't know.  I've made attempts to get clean before.  But this time is most definitely different.